Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Life is precious!

Its been one crazy week for me since my last post. Life has changed in a blink of an eye for my little family and I. I can't stress how important it is for each of us to take the time to cherish the moments we have to be with our loved ones. My mom in particular has been such a great example of courage and strength as she discovered last week she has cancer. You can imagine how horrified I was to hear this discovery. Just the word "cancer" alone was enough to stir so many mixed emotions and feelings for me because its hereditary in my moms family, and anyone who has had cancer, has died of it. I can't even imagine how my mother feels right now. I know she's scared, terrified, and so sad. It was almost like the news of it all has already taken a part of her. Seeing and experiencing this all is so surreal right now, but its evident just how important it is for us to keep my mom uplifted right now by staying positive, showing no fear, and keeping her busy. This whole experience although its only just begun, has brought my siblings and I even closer to my mom ten fold! - and that alone is so amazing. To see the strength of my familys love shine through this trial has been miracle in itself. I love my mom more than she'll even know! I have been so blessed to have a mom who has always taken care of me, even up until now, married and all - she has never missed out on anything in my life, big or small! She has always been there for me when I needed her and I have always seen her the same, "my mom". In my eyes, she never aged, changed, she is timeless. I can't explain it, because don't get me wrong, physically she has changed, but mentally those changes have never impacted the way I saw my mom until now. Its like the news of this all was a huge wake up call for me! Was I crazy to think my mom would live forever:)....My mom means the world to me, and without her in my life right now I would be a mess. She is at the core of who I am today and has taught me the importance of humility. She lives a simple life, doesn't care about fashion, doesn't care about material things, but has always been such a spiritual powerhouse for my family. She is made up of the deepest devotion, joy, and sacrifice. She has always been selfless, and has shown me how to endure to the end. There is no way to measure this womans love because there is no beginning or end. I love you Mom! With this, all I can say is that our life is so precious, fragile, yet fleeting. Photography is such an important piece of documenting the blessings and experiences of the human spirit. The power of imagery has become so real as this experience has moved me in the direction of capturing every moment with my mom whom I adore, respect, and aspire to be! I'm making our memories tangible and enjoying every minute of it. I don't expect anyone to feel bad for me, but moreso hope that anyone that reads is able to recognize the blessings of our mothers and how invaluable that love and relationship really is. Much luv!

6 comments:

Joan Solitario said...

Hi Seini! I hope and pray that your mom will be okay and will beat this!

Oto said...

Seini....thank you thank you thank you. I know at times I can take for granted having my parents around. I appreciate your words and spirit as a reminder of what blessings they themselves are in MY life and pray that Heavenly Father blesses you and your family that you may get through this trial. We love you and your family very much Seini!!!!!

Vaitai 6 said...

Sein... I know we've been talking this past week and every time I think about your mom and her diagnosis my heart aches for you, and I can't help but look at my family different. I CHERISH the things that on another day I'd find annoying. I'm slowing down, and taking all of this in. AND taking time. Thank you for this post. I know how hard it was for you write this. I know how much your mom means to you. You mom IS such an amazing woman whose love was overflowing. I remember all the love she'd pour on us during our difficult times. I haven't forgotten and I am so grateful. I love you Sein! I pray for you and your family!

Always! L xoxo

Kayleen T. Photography said...

Seini, I hope you and your family are doing okay and that your mom is doing okay. Stay Positive is the best thing!! My mom found out she had cancer right when I found out I was pregnant with our daughter, so she had the birth of her first grandchild to look forward to.

Spahulu Photography said...

Thanks so much gals for your thoughfulness! Thanks also to those of you who emailed me. Theres definitely a long road ahead of us but I know everything will be fine. Thank you for keeping my mom in your prayers, and please cherish the moments you have with your loved ones!

Jake said...

Hey Seini...this is Jake and Steph. Just wanted to let you and your family know that we love you guys.

the Langi's from Texas